What the fuck is wrong with me?

I'm really freaking out.After all this time, everything has changed. Now I finally feel that I have reached an equilibrium. I feel so good. And it is without you. So please stop trying to do what you're trying to do. I'm not a fool, I'm not going to fall in your trap again. What do you want me do? To leave everything for you? Return to that stupid unhappy place. Forget it. I can't, I lost you, and I know it was my fault, but I told you once and I can tell you as many times as you want: I'M OVER YOU! So please go away from me. I don't want you. No more. Never.

What the fuck is wrong with you?