Three times deeper than most of the people around me. I've got many layers, perhaps too many, and that is why only a privileged few can enjoy myself and my real thoughts. After the first layer of "superficiality and total consumerism", the "I give all a shit" layer appears.
Behind, the impassable barrier, impossible to go through, the "never to come to my feelings" one.
Tanks, flamethrowers, grenades, machine guns, try all your weapons, they will be totally useless. Harder than diamond on the front, more fragile than the paper behind.
If you succeed, congratulations and welcome to Wonderland.